BEGINNING OF MY "LIFE AGE'S LIBERATION" SEARCH

Intrigue: The couple reminded to revise my purpose of traveling -- intriguing to find the way to convert collecting photos for showing, "This is the house that Jack built, to "These are families and communities I shared to built -- that yields me eternal attribute flows of patronal, fraternal, sonny leverage love freedom and wealth".
My Nonsense Doctoratism: Age 32, as an ecological socio-economic journalists, I got plugged in on surrealist tunnel diode-connection to surrealize Thailand's potential of making the whole Andaman seashore tourist retreat belt. That was the first time my free mind stated to scan into my travel and surrealist feeling kingdom -- that empower the whirling of Kali capitalism.
Sensing the Knot: I was not idiot in surrealizing hopes of making things better and never existed happen for families, companies, countries -- but why all hopes surrealized float heavily bound to crash, and required me, my partners, followers to BBQ life and sacrifice family's fraternal cares for sustaining companies and countries?
Congratulation ! The whole world has been completely turned downside up. Whatever intellectual eyes see high is actually low, and what we see low is actually high. And, death is calling for whoever fantasizes, "I'm (materially) better than (any) you". ~ Ralph Peterson
Big Why?: Why companies/ countries (people activating together) make no life? But, animals, plants and bacterias activating together make jungle life? If companies, countries have life why can't it be sincerely gratitude to playing UPOL pingpong boomerangs with co-innovative families? "Ha! Ha! There must be idiot faculty labyrinths hidden in man's doctoratical intellects, that corrupt God's blessed Ethos-geared Laws. What makes pyramid tops ingratitude to their own foundations? This paradox challenged my Isac Newton.
Forensics: Sitting on this (by then isolate, virgin) beach, reflecting and contemplating, I felt bored and tired of my own 12-year travel to Sisypheanly refresh life. Then, a forensic question flashed up, "What am I really looking for in travel spending time, energy, mentality, money ?" For it was really vacation -- just vacate from place to place to get away from work, relax idle, socialize with new faces, sex, drink, sport, swim,trek, meditation etc..then go back getting stressed, low batt., plan to vacate around again next annual leave!
Predictable: Regardless of inserted moments you're engaged in events, situations, associations that utterly drain the energy. "Oh! endless looping. "Man, it's forseenable, you just struggle to get old broke and die poor", I told myself, and thanks God for having been always has my elder brother Satan to help shifting me to a new career path at wish, whenever I asked for.
For BBB: In reflections, I saw myself struggling for colonial BBBs (bosses, banks, brewers) mindset -- Bank; "Fine weather, lend him an umbrella. Cloudy sky, fetch it back". Boss; "Laying golden eggs, feed him. Laying normal eggs, BBQ him". Brewers; "Soak the lion's metaphysics with ethyl, sex, any pleasures. The "liking, familiar, addictive" rope will tether him around BBB-paved road's roulette, wherever he goes". And, I saw you, me, anybody rich/poor, doctoratic/undoctoratic are self-condemned to Sisypheanly shoulder colonialism.
In Search of Guiding Star: I left home since 14 in search of a Go-right mentor to me on the road of UPOL holistic hope (God-projectiled in my Adam (subconscious) spring well) dad repeatedly shewed me since I was 12 (in preparations to send me away from being victimized by my shamanic ego)."Where is a cross road to get out of this perpetual Sisyphean retreat looping?". Meditating into sleep every night I made wish that I could find someone who know the way out. More Commentary Next Post.
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